Tele Aadsen

writer - fisherman - listener

I’m typ­ing qui­et­ly this morn­ing, friends.

Thick dark­ness out­side, my house­mates are still cling­ing to sleep. All except Bear – I poked her awake and insist­ed she join me down­stairs. She’s been a loy­al com­pan­ion in my writ­ing room all win­ter, reli­ably sprawled in front of the propane fire­place while I type, and I want her to share this final morning.

Today is our tran­si­tion. With a four hour flight, our lives shift abrupt­ly from spa­cious house on soil to cramped cab­in at sea. When we first get set­tled aboard and the small wheel­house radi­ates warmth from the galley’s diesel stove, I’ll view “cramped” as “cozy,” and relieved peace will seep through my body. I’ll feel a wave of affec­tion for the ves­sel that, for the next six months, will be our every­thing. Home, work­place. At her best, a trust­ed friend who ensures our safe­ty in an envi­ron­ment where humans don’t belong. At her worst… Well, some­thing less than a trust­wor­thy friend.

Hav­ing such a clear­ly defined, bi-annu­al switch between lives lends itself to reflec­tions of what we’re say­ing good­bye to. On my 24th sea­son of this migrant life, I’m an old pro at leav­ing, but have felt unusu­al­ly ambiva­lent this year. So I take spe­cial plea­sure with this last cof­fee and Eng­lish muf­fin – nei­ther come out as tasty on the boat – and con­sid­er the past week’s bit­ter­sweet observations.

The siz­zle of chopped onions hit­ting the hot skil­let – won’t hear that for a while. Even when you let a pan sit on the stove’s “hot spot” – right above the diesel flame – noth­ing ever comes to a full siz­zle or rolling boil.

Damn… didn’t get a bath while I still had access to a tub. The only show­ers from here on out will be infre­quent and in the fish plant’s com­mu­nal stalls.

We didn’t eat enough Thai food this win­ter. Upon that real­iza­tion, we splurged on take-out Pad Kee Mao twice, to tide us through the six month drought.

Save that quar­ter. Between fish­ing trips, we’ll haul loads of ripe laun­dry to the Laundromat.

I’ll miss this bed. Say good­bye to sprawl­ing across the queen-size acreage. Carved of pecu­liar geo­met­rics to curve with the hull, our foam bunk is an opti­mistic dou­ble at the shoul­ders, but tapers to a tan­gled, tight squeeze at the foot.

Bear’s not gonna like this. Our girl’s pre­ferred water source is direct­ly from the tap. With the Nerka’s lim­it­ed water sup­ply to car­ry us through two-week trips, she won’t get that option.

This migra­tion requires adap­ta­tion from all of us. But turned inside-out, regrets reveal gifts, and my atti­tude shifts to gid­dy anticipation.

The Back­door Café! Bernadette and Sotera! For­get the Eng­lish muf­fin; I’ll be hav­ing pie with my cof­fee tomor­row morning.

Ravens! My yard birds and squir­rels have been faith­ful vis­i­tors, but my heart belongs to Sitka’s hefty corvids.

Friends! In a com­mu­ni­ty of 9000, even strangers are famil­iar faces. One of my favorite touch­stones of return­ing is see­ing peo­ple I don’t know by name, but whose con­tin­ued pres­ence assures me I’m home.

Home. Enough said.

Be well, friends — we’ll catch you on the oth­er side.